Saturday, January 28, 2012

I Will Never Leave You, Nor Forsake You

Today was the hardest day of my life. I had ten minutes to see my sister through glass and communicate by phone.....it seemed like a nightmare I just couldn't shake. To be honest, it was all a blur. I don't remember anyone around me, I can't even recall her stripped attire. The one thing that remains vivid in my memory is her eyes....they said it all!

I'm so sorry

I don't know how this happened

Thank God you still love me

After we both wept for three minutes, I made her laugh....something we have always been able to do for each other in a time of turmoil! We had about eight minutes left and it seemed like the minutes were racing, and I just wanted to stop time! She wanted to know how my boys were doing.....they have a deep love for one another, and she would literally give her life for them. She wanted to know if I saw her on the news and how sorry she was to embarrass the family. I assured her I never saw the news and never cared to, and I could careless what anyone thought about her or our family. When I told her that so many people have offered kind, encouraging words, she was in disbelief that anyone would speak anything of her but criticism.

She was proud to tell me that she enjoys the church ladies that come to speak, and she has started reading the bible. I expressed my sadness for where she was but at the same time, a feeling of peace.

I know it's going to be a long, hard road but you can have a fulfilling life when this is all over, and it's a chance to heal....a new beginning!

She didn't say a word, she couldn't......with tears streaming down her face, she nodded and mouthed the words "I know."

Then our moment was abruptly terminated as they escorted me out of the room.

I wanted to bust through the glass, grab her, and run for dear life. I wanted to bring her home for dinner at my parents like we do every weekend. I wanted her to walk through the front door and my boys run and jump in her arms....I wanted everything to be the way it was.

Then, God reminded me.....this is what it's going to take to save her life, let go and let me.

 I know it's the truth, I found a letter she wrote me just before she was arrested.

Hey Sis, I know your angry I took the selfish, easy way out. I want you to know I struggled with this decision for about 20 years. This life was never really for me and I've never known what's wrong with me, but I've never been happy. I'm sorry I was never the sister you deserved. Please do me a favor, I love those boys more than anything in the world and they think I hung the moon. They have not been jaded by the truth yet, please don't let people ever talk bad about me in front of them. Please don't let them know their aunt was a drug addict. I love you very much and I hope you have a wonderful life!
Love Carrie

If she wasn't arrested when she was, I believe we would have found her dead.
I'm praising God through this storm and I know he is at work!

Addiction is a battle my sister has fought since she was sixteen and it's consumed her entire life. She has a good heart and she wants to live a happy life, she just can't seem to find her way out. Her careers have included law enforcement, paramedic, and military..........she always wanted to save other people, but never found a way to save herself.

Tonight I was looking at pictures.....


and wondered, how in the world did this happen? Where did this little girl go? How do we save her?

I'm not sure, but I do know.....I will never give up and neither will God!


I will never leave you nor forsake you.
Hebrews 13:5

Until Next Time.....

Sunday, January 15, 2012

2011- Best Year Ever!!

The year of 2011....Lets see, where do I begin? In 2011 our cup surely ranneth over, to say the least. It was jammed packed with BIG changes and even bigger blessings!

Chris got a load master position with the Air Guard, which had us traveling a good bit....we lived in San Antonio & Oklahoma for several months, and enjoyed a brief stay in Florida.

He now flies with the C-17, and I'm so proud of my Top Gun!

As for me and my biggest accomplishment, I had the natural birth of my dreams......


and this blue-eyed beauty made our family complete!
My Colby man entered the world of soccer...


and turned "4"!!!
Chase still hasn't learned to talk very well, but he has conquered the potty!!
We decided to move to the Rez, since it's more convenient.....closer to Chris's new job and a skip away from all the activities we enjoy!

We started our New Year's festivities with my life-long friend and her kiddos......

Angie & Josie
                                                (Sorry you must tilt your head sideways, but I'm done with the stubbornness of these pics!)

 then kept the par-tay going with some of our favorites!!!
We all cooked up some calzones (so fun).....
Kim & Me

Gary & Shannon

Kevin & Kim


 and rang in the New Year with a baby in tow and a cheesy toast!!
 2011 bestowed blessings galore, and we are beyond grateful!


Until Next Time............

Friday, January 13, 2012

Hook em!!

Do you have a boppy still lingering around that you just can't let go of......since that would mean your sweet baby is no longer a baby?! If you have had a baby in the last few years then I'm sure you do! Well don't think once your baby is done breastfeeding that it has served its purpose.....oh no mam, the fun is just beginning for your beloved boppy!

HOOK EM!

If you have wild boys that get thrills from rough, tough chaos then use Mr. Boppy to Hook em.....they will beg for more!

You can Hook & Pull...
or really get crazy with the Hook & Throw......

Either way.....it's fun had by all!!!
Until Next Time.....

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Christmas 2011

I hosted my first Christmas dinner this year, and I have to admit I was proud.....it was delish! I kept it simple with a honey baked ham, Paula Dean's green bean casserole, grandma's dressing, a fruit salad, french bread, and a chocolate chip cookie dough pie that was divine!!!

Nanny and Pawpaw Mike came to celebrate Christmas Eve and....

brought the boy's some cool laptops.....you really cant get any cooler than Thomas on your computer, right?
Aunt KK brought a gift that was definitely a necessity.....a gigantic body ball!! I mean everyone needs a ball they can climb in, roll around crazy, and break a bone!


It was a hit with my crazy squirts!!! If aunt KK had kids it would be payback for sure, but since she has a girlfriend and no desire to have children I will have to get creative!

KK & Melissa helped the boys make a choo choo train to leave out for Santa.....cookies just wouldn't cut it!

My exuberant boys got their Pj's on in a flash, leaped into bed, and.....
enjoyed The Night Before Christmas!
We really tried to emphasize that Christmas is Jesus's birthday and not theirs, so we got them a few of their favorite things but kept it extremely simple! 

Except this bad boy.....
It was their one big gift! Colby has had one for two years now and they fought over it all the time....now they can ride together!!

I'm glad we kept it simple since this little guy was Colby's MOST FAVORITE TOY OF ALL!!!
It didn't take much for Chasey Poo either.....the flashlight stole the spotlight!!
Christmas day was celebrated with the Jones crew, and Coach & Jojo showered the boys with more presents than Santa!

Colby could not get enough of his leap pad, which he calls his IPad....so he can be like Daddy.
We are beyond blessed and Christmas 2011 was the best.............
 just ask my sweet baby girl!!



Until Next Time
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